Where is the scoreboard ?

salam'alaik :)

The hardest battle is when you are against yourself.

Indeed.

And reality bites.

The devilish one will win.

Most of the time.

How could this happen i wonder.

And the scoreboard !

Where the heaven is the scoreboard ?!

Im thinking , the score board might help us in realising how many times have we got beaten.

How many times we fail and lose in the battle. 

In fighting ourselves.

In fighting our nafs.

I myself lose in the battle.

So i decided that i must win this time.

So , thats all for today. 

wallahualam

p/s: i'm not saying that blogging or blogswandering (am i using it right?) is wrong. 

priority is what matters. 

until then...

I made it! 
Okey bye for real.

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DEATH AWAITS ON THE ELEVENTH HOUR

salam'alaik 

wahh ! long time no type.

i was distracted by this one semi?-malay novel ,

CONTENGAN JALANAN by HLOVATE.

and what were written were all damn true.

to those who haven't read the masterpiece,

you are officially recommended to :)

based on the novel , 

there are so many points worth pondering.

but today, now, at this very moment ,

what i want to highlight here , in this post, 

is the quote that is being repeated in the i-Fend-point-of-view-section over and over.

THE MAN WHO DECIDED TO CHANGE ON THE 12TH HOUR DIES ON THE 11TH.

reading HLOVATE made me believe that surrounding is one of the important factor or should i say , booster,

in helping ourselves changing for the better. 

in seeking the real purpose of life.

in finding His blessing.

in finding Jannah. 

the writer stressed on the fact that;

when we are in a non-muslim country,

when we are in a non-muslim community,

we will appreciate Islam better. 

why ?

because most of the people in my own country 

practice Islam not as a religion, but as a culture. 

they don't practice it because they understand it,

but they practice it because that's what commoners do.

so based on the novel, 

both Fend and K-Square gained their faith,

their truly-defined life,

from Australia and Indonesia respectively. 

"bermusafirlah.

bumi Allah itu luas.

Ilmu-Nya juga luas.

belajarlah dengan bermusafir.

ramai yang terlupa,

alam itu sendiri guru yang hebat dalam mengajarkan ilmu-Nya"

then i decided ;

when i get to America,

i must find and feel what were found and felt by Fend and K-Square.

i must find the exact definition of life.

i must change before the 11th hour.

but,

why later? and why America?

why not now, in Malaysia ?

because the surrounding , the environment in Malaysia is not conducive enough ?

because the community here in Malaysia is not faithful enough ?

because the feeling of being a Muslim in Malaysia is not deep enough ?

teeetttt ! wrong answer , zara !

i realised ; 

i don't have to wait until i get to America to define LIFE. 

we all recite the definition of LIFE five times a day, minimally, in our prayers.

"all our salutations are for Allah, and prayers, and good deeds."

we live for him. we die for him.
just for Him.

don't wait for the community around us to change.

don't wait for the surrounding to change.

DON'T WAIT !

plus, 

THE MAN WHO DECIDED TO CHANGE ON THE 12TH HOUR DIES ON THE 11TH.

i wonder,

do i want to be the unlucky one who change on the 12th hour ?

will i even stay alive on the 10th , or 9th, or even 8th hour ?

points worth pondering,

worthless if just to be think and do nothing.

may HE gives me the strength to change way before the 11th hour.

WAY BEFORE IT'S TOO LATE

amin